Agoraphobia and the longing to escape

A Mind’s Captivity a micro poem by Susan L Urasky

Depression Agoraphobia Mental Health Matter
 A poem depicting freedom from agoraphobia

Depression and agoraphobia

Depression and agoraphobia. The anxiety that builds during depression may cause one to stay indoors.  One may pull the shades and turn off the lights.  At time the senses are so heightened and intense that the light increases their anxiousness. To look outside may feel like the panes of glass will cut and cause harm. A panic instills and may cause one to breathe rapidly and with shallow breaths, hyperventilating, triggering a numbing sensation throughout their limbs.  They cut ties with others, leaving them alone.  I feel there needs to be more awareness of mental illness symptoms, and to try to understand how those suffering feel. People with friends that are suffering from agoraphobia may not realize they are not intentionally shut out but their friend’s illness is keeping them from doing the things they commonly did in the past. You can reach out, you can accept their illness. Be more aware.
I was inspired by this photograph of mine to write, “A Mind’s Captivity” a micro poem to capture the longing to be free from the shadows. Those who suffer from agoraphobia; are held captive in their mind.

“lost in the gray”

Depression and suicide awareness

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A poem dedicated to suicide prevention. For those suffering from depression. Mental Health Matters

Depression and suicide awareness.
We must take notice, we must pay attention to the signals from those who have depression and are hurting. Their pain is deep and sometimes hidden. Look into their eyes and see those tears that no longer stream for they are dried up. Hold them close and warm their soul. Offer kind words for they are scarred from the harshness. Listen to the soliloquies, for they utter their torment. But on the other hand, ignorance will fail. To be oblivious is to say that their feelings are not valid. Take action to avoid facing the outcome and having to bury your loved ones ashes…the consequence of unnoticed depression, is suicide. Don’t let them be “lost in the gray”.

My First Blog Post

Why I’m Writing

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I almost died. My sister died, she took her own life. I have a second chance. That is what inspired me to write and start a blog, to portray tragedy through cathartic expression.
My novel is a fiction story, and fact based. It delves into the difficulties we face in our lives. It sinks into the darkness of mental illness, the difficulties those with disabilities face trying to manage their lives, it digs into the secrets of eating disorders, family dysfunction along with the loving ties and bonds that unite us within our support systems.
The attempts made to maintain wellness has its triumphs and turns. It takes constant effort and those who have loved ones to assist them can benefit extremely well.
Family support and the ties that bind us can either grow or break. It can be heartfelt or gut wrenching.
Our lives are exposed by forces beyond our control, maternal narcissism, intentional neglect and possibly genetic factors. Is this what shapes us? Do we have choices? Aristotle said, “Health is a matter of choice, not a mystery of chance.” How can we choose?
If we have chosen to strive for wellness, what happens when life takes a wrong horrific turn?
While researching the cause of my near-death experience, the shocking reasons astounded me. Although my novel is fiction, is it based on true events and real medicine.
How can I let the world know?
I decided to write my novel after hearing a famous female screenwriter once say, “ Everyone has a story inside their head, just write it.” And my writing journey began.